Feel'n like a fat kid!

I feel like I have no controll whatsoever!

Chocolate binge... Feel like shit... Shit I tell you... honestly got myself sick off of chocolate-covered almonds, and now seeing food makes me want to throw up. I ate like... 500 calories of chocolate! WHOLEY FAWCK.

Well... that puts me at a total of like 900 calories today, after I finish dinner. If I eat it. DAMN.

I will not purge, though. Ana is about controll, and feeling like my stomach will rupture at any moment is my punishment. Never have I or will I purge.

Still... I haven't done anything that could make me gain weight... I didn't actually eat 3500 calories, that two pounds is your body fluxuating over fecal matter and fluids!! So, I'm fine. There's no way in hell they're forcing a mahi mahi taco down my throat at dinner... anyways, I'm lactose intolerant, so I'll blame milk for my unruly stomachache. Wholey shizz.

Well... I defeated the Puppeteer on MS and got a whooping total of 12,000EXP. ;D Happy... Still feel like a fatass. Fat. Fat. Fat. I know didn't really gain any weight, but still. I've deffinatley dissapointed my 115lb self...

Some tips:

Well, first off, I've spent all my time not studying/excersizing[did i spell that right o.o'''] on pro-ana sites, and so, here is a large compilement of all the tips i've got in my arsinal that have kept me away from food for going-on five days! It's really easy if you just think: "Yes, that... or I could just decide not to eat it.".

Here come the tips!!

• you'll be fat if you eat it
• just firmly decide not to eat it
• find your personal thinspo song to listen to {mine's Skeleton SOng by Kate Nash}
• your body can easily opperate on water and it's fat
• just put it off one more day
• you'll be remembered as the beautiful thin one
• guys/girls will be mor elikley to talk to you
• you'll be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones
• fat is dirty and hangs on your bones like a paracite
• are models fat? should you eat it?
• too many americans are fat, and they're spreading it.
• do you want the fat pigs and three-chinned-maggots to like you because you resemble them?
• only thin people are beautiful
• if you slap a fattass, the fat ripples
• walk in the snow and leave no footprints
• dance between the raindrops in a shower of rain
• NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS.
• 'no thanks" to food is "yes please" to thin
• only fat people enjoy feeling full
• is fat, gluttonous, unhealthy, evil food more important to you than your goal
• think of ana as your partner and secret weapon
• because skinny clothes are so much cuter than fa clothes
• because how would you like to have to compare your fat-self to your skinny, beautiful self?
• because it's great to have to ask for a smaller size
• because nothing will ever beat a size 00 falling off my hipbones... besides seeing my hipbones ;D
• because eating will only make you miserable
• thin=pretty
• when you're thin you don't feel foolish with aspirations to be an actress or a model
• BECAUSE YOU HAVE COME TOO FAR TO LET SOMETING AS TRIVIAL AS FOOD GET IN YOUR WAY.
• you didn't gain it overnight, and you won't loose it that quickly either
• you're not deprived of food, it's depriving you of thinness
• soon, everyone will start to get fat and outweigh you
• you can be a stealthy ninja! ;D
• imagine the annoying, skinny bitch everyone hates finding out you weight less that her.
• if you're cold, it's working
• imagine you in a size 2. 1... 0?
• spend the money you could spend on food in someting else.. (thinspo journal [a really nice one!], clothes, shoes, spa treatment, movie, haircut {you won't believe how well this works! I go to the mall each weekend with my lunch money and allowence and blow through the hot topic clearance section ;D})
• you'll be able to pull off any style!
• <HERE'S ONE FOR THE ANIME FANS!> OMFG, put that p0cky down, if you want to look like an anime character, don't you get it, you cannot eat like one!
• IF YOUR LEGS STILL TOUCH, YOU'RE NOT THERE YET!
• Everything in the fridge is failure.
• does ana want to visit the fridge? no she dosn't
• gum.
• you're too good to fall to the level of all thoes three-chinned-maggotts.
• watch the people arround you eat, and chew, and... eww.
• if you don't eat it, you'll see your own self-restraint
• think of how you'll feel when you're full
• try on all the clothes you want ot fit so badly
• do you want that cookie more than you want to be skinny?
• taste is just a feeling; hunger is just a craving; a craving can be supressed
• do you really wan to get any fatter?
• DO NOT TAKE ORDERS FROM THE GOD DAMN PIECE OF CAKE. NOT THE BURRITO EITHER.
• each moment you're not eating, you're losing weight
• write a list of all the reasons not to eat it
• you have controll..
• you are a perfectionist
• calories don't make you happy
• eating makes you miserable
• starving yourself feels good
• if you don't eat, you don't have to worry over what you've eaten
• you're not thin until you are
• the longer you starve the easier it gets
• we do eat normally... all that is needed to survive.
• when you're empty... you feel like you oculd fly!
• the body is a object ot be perfected
• everyone else is just geting fatter!
• your clothes won't fit!
• you'll run faster with out all that shit holding you down
• you'll shop everywhere!
• everyone else can be friends with bic macs; it dosn't matter, as long as your best friedn is water.
• food= 1 sec -- thin= 1 lifetime
• you have enough fat to sustainy uorself just a few more days!
• you can be the pretty thin girl in the group
• if you don't eat it you'll be thin and get compliments
• that's not butter, you half-wit, it's congealed custard.
• count to 100 while thinking over the reasong not to eat it.
• just take a walk
• have you got a fat photo of yourself? well: stare at it!
• look arround and point out all the fat people to yourself
• if your somewhere and about to binge, go into a bathroom and reason with yourself over why you shouldn't eat it
• feel your bones; do you want to see them or not?
• drink a lot of fluids [low-cal!]
• brush yor teeth
• get out of the house- avaoid eating and burn calories!
• make a ANA SCRAPBOOK [they work wonders]
• if you're hungry... it's working! don't let that feeling stop!
• eat in front of a mirror. naked.
• want food? your thighs.
• FRIDGE PICKERS WEAR BIG KNICKERS!
• eat to live, not vise versa
• food is a hendarance to your success
• food is the drug we must all quit
• the difference betweenwant and need is self-controll
• whenever arises the oppertunity to eat, arises the same oppurtunity to refuse. please accept the latter.
• DO NOT TRADE WHAT YOU WANT MOST FOR WHAT YOU WANT at the moment.
• they're all just envious of your restraint
• the hungrier yo are the more fat you burn
• fidgeting burns quite a few calories.
• Of course it's hard: were it easy, we'd all be thin.
• make a list of fat people you know
• watch a fashion channel on TV
• cake-sniffer, or fridge-picker?
• enjoy hunger... it's like our own special kind of natural high!
• take the stairs
• A MOMENT ON THE LIPS, A LIFETIME ON THE HIPS!
• you'll look great
• don't damn ourself to look like the fat kid in PE class who took twenty minuites to run the mile. ;D
• if someone calls you fat, it'll be sarcasm
• is your faviorite celebruty fat? [if they are, please ignore that one... o-O;;]
• you'll eat eventually! just wait until then. eating that will show how fat and dependent on food you still are.
• I ♥ ANA
• stop poisoning your body with food!
• don't eat anything today you'll regret tomorrow
• you're not thin until you are
• if your legs touch, you're fat.
• you're not attractive in this world until you are thin
• if you eat it, you just movesdthree steps back form your goal
• you haven't really failed until you've quit
• if you're hugnry, it's working
• diets don't work unless you've the willpoewer to make them.
• success won't come to you... it has to be met at least half way.
• you'll have the right to call a lot of people fat
• instead of reasons why you can't, give reasons why you can.
• EVERY TIME YOU WALK PAST SOMEONE, THEY'LL THINK, "I wish i has her body..".
• only you can let yourself fail!
• no pain; no gain
• todays's sacrafice will play yet another role as tomorrow's investment.
• you can hide cravings on the inside, and your thiness will shoe on the outside.
• wear a rubber ban arround your wrist, and snap it when you want ot eat.
• write down the reasons not to eat it
• think of your goal! keep it in mind.